Ok na ba ako?

After a couple of weeks, i've decide na uwi nako samin.. sure kaba na ok kana ching?( ewan ko ) bahala na!

Lord i can't deny it! you know how much she mean to me! bakit ganun?
i feel happy for her! but on the other way around, i got a lot of pain! seriously pain that almost killing me! day and night, i dont know what to do!

sometimes, its just like a wishful thingking i've always dreaming or imagined us finally being together! I’ve always kept my hopes up for an eternity with her..It became the thought that would keep me out of depression (sometimes)
I’ve long been deluding myself that she loved me :( even for a single moment in our past – and that in the end, "it would be me and you" (dreaming again)

"im having a hard time breathing"

I blamed my physiological seasons for the abrupt withdrawal of my surrender!

Masaya nako para sa kanya i feel there's someone whos taking care of her now..
pero ako? :( i have nothing .. nothing but ill stand a broken man...

God, kaya hanggat makakayanan ko,, i'll try! but, if i cant make it, i think it would be better for me to take my life rather than lying in the dark..

One shot!

Guys i really have something serious to say..

There was a man who was constantly at her side, whenever she would get her heart broken, this man would always let her cry on his shoulder, tell her that things would be fine..
(its Me!)


After a couple of weeks i found out that i'm so in love with you and i cant let you go!
As each and everyday pass me by, there isn't one which I won't miss you.

you were always on my mind, thinking about you, dreaming about you... always took a pray for you to notice that i really care even if you havent seen it..

you knew, that i want to be a part of you and wanted to take care you for the rest of my life..
For a while life was so perfect,

But all good things must come to an end, right?
i feel like im a dead man! (useless, meaningless)
I knew you were already gone.i cant have you back.. if there were a chance to prove it to you (for the 2nd time) that everything i said i meant, i hope there's someone here
who could help me..

But Still. hoping that someday or somehow you'll see that im willing to give everything and do anything to have you back, to feel happy once again even if for just a few secs..
wherever you are now always remember that my love goes with you.

i love you and miss you bachoy!!(lilit)

Time to go!

Father, help me lead on my way, I admit i had sinned, i still hold on to my words, i never break it, I never intend to loss it,

The distance that has been measured from the start, ends up in shattering.
We both thought that things will work smoothly. We thought with love we can stand to what we say.
God, please look over her,Put her away from harm and mischiefs, for I will still hold on to what my heart say.

posted on: (June 17 2009)